The creative process, to me, comes in two different "modes".
Firstly, there is what I call the *organic* mode of creation.
In the organic mode of creation I blindly let the Creative Will guide me, and I merely *follow*, as I submit myself to depersonalised chaos as a main driving force. Here, I follow the artwork.
Secondly, there is the *mechanical* mode of creation. This mode is achieved by consciously submitting the artwork to your rationale. In the mechanical mode of creation I *lead* the creative path. Here, the artwork follows me.
The works that are most liberating to make are always the organic pieces. Because even though I as the artist must submissively follow the Creative Will of the organic artwork, the organic
artwork *itself* is free in its identity: it is free to change at any point in time during the process of its own creation because my rationale does not intervene. This is liberating to me,
because, in my total identification with the work at the time of creation, I experience its total freedom, whilst at the same time being utterly will-less. This
The mechanical artwork, on the other hand, is condemned to the prison of the one identity I have consciously determined it to be. Although I am the leader in this mode of creation, and therefore technically free to do what I want with the work, the work is not allowed to change the predetermined course I have set for it. Unlike the organic, the mechanical artwork is strictly goal-oriënted, and therefore unplanned change in the mechanical artwork is equal to error. This means that, despite my leadership role and the technical freedom which it implies, it is this mode of creation which feels most restrictive.
When creating an organic piece, I am the slave who submits to the Creative Will, which commands to freedom in its goallessness.
When creating a mechanical piece, I am the leader who is slaved by the goal set by myself.